Older but not wiser

I have been shocked at how quickly I can become disillusioned and discouraged as I’ve got older.

Once it seemed so easy to believe…to acknowledge God’s hand in so many different ways…to trust him for the future.

But somehow in all the twists and turns of life, the future hasn’t quite gone as I thought it would…things happen…prayers aren’t answered as I expected…things I thought to be secure and took for granted  have crumbled around  me.

Yesterday I was reading in  Ecclesiastes 12…”remember your creator in the days of your youth before the days of trouble come.”

 How privileged am I to have known my God in my younger days.

It’s only natural that the longer we live the more heart ache and pain we will see but…I knew God’s faithfulness…I’ve proved his power…I saw him touch lives…I’ve frequently  recalled how he’s touched my life…spoken to my heart…shown me his faithfulness.

Why do I doubt? Why so many questions after all these years?

Father, God, I will meditate on your goodness…your faithfulness for you are the same yesterday, today and forever and I will choose to remain faithful.

The writer of Hebrews is talking to believers when he warns, Today, if you hear his voice do not harden your hearts. When David first wrote those words in Psalm 95 he was calling the people back  to their God…to bow down in worship…to kneel before the Lord their maker for HE is our God and we are his people! No past or future…forever in the present!

Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess for he who promised is faithful (Hebrew 10;23)

And as Steve Green says in his song, May those who come behind me find me faithful!